Life is different for a C- mom who doesn't have any other children, I guess technically she wouldn't be considered a C- mom if she did have other children than those she's lost, maybe she'd just be an average C mom. The longer you go being a C- mom (the kind without any other kids), the harder it is to find happiness for other women or couples when they announce they are going from C- to C+. I find myself behaving in a manner that is two-faced, I shower the woman/couple with congratulations while in private I am upset that again someone else is becoming C+ while I struggle still to make it a possibility.
I know the situation my husband and I are in is "special" as neither of us are optimal candidates to even be trying to work our way into the C+ category but that doesn't make it any less difficult when his younger sisters, my younger cousins, and every other fertile myrtle is out there popping off baby announcements. It makes me feel two-faced and unhappy. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone else, just like I wouldn't wish being C- on anyone else. I hate feeling bitter like this.
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